Britney's Pismo Fanovima..

Naslov: Britney's Pismo Fanovima.. Ned Jan 20, 2008 3:57 am

Eng:

“Dear Fans, I just wanted to reach out to all of you and explain some of the things that I have been faced with recently. It’s so funny how many stories are put out there about people.

It’s like we all want our side of the story out there as well, but at the end of the day only a few people care to hear what is really going on since the bad is always so much more interesting than the truth.

I don’t know why, but this is so weird to me. I used to be angry at the tabloids for printing horrible things about me, but now I try to just be numb to what I see. I saw Tyra Banks once get really upset and cry on her show because they made her look fat. We all want a certain image of ourselves out there, and at some point we all do really care what other people think or we wouldn’t be here. Recently, I was sent to a very humbling place called rehab. I truly hit rock bottom. Till this day I don’t think that it was alcohol or depression.

I was like a bad kid running around with ADD. I had a manager from a long time ago come in and try to direct me and my life after I got my divorce. I was so overwhelmed I think that I was in a little shock too. I didn’t know who to go to. I realized how much energy and love I had put into my past relationship when it was gone because I genuinely did not know what to do with myself, and it made me so sad. I confess, I was so lost.

This letter is to not place blame on anyone, although I do see the world with a completely different set of eyes now. Being in that vulnerable state and taken to dinners and parties with friends and finding out later you paid for everything was a huge learning lesson for me.

I think the whole problem was letting too many people into my life. You never know another persons intentions or what another person wants. I feel I was too open and looking for answers when I had it all to begin with. I have had to cut so many people out of my life. It is so sad, because if anyone is a family person…it is me. When I was little I remember every night watching movies with my family and feeling so at peace. Dancing and singing all the time just like a little girl should.

Now recently I find with my children that I want them to have that feeling all of the time. I am having to face a lot of things right now since I have children of my own. A lot of insecurities from when I was little are coming up again. It is like we are never good enough. I know everyone thinks that I am playing the victim, but I am not and I hate what is going on right now so much.

Maybe this is the reason for this letter…to maybe allow people to look at me differently. It is like when you are a real woman and say what you feel and how you think things are supposed to be, that people just say you are a “bitch.” I feel like some of the people in my life made more of some issues than was necessary. I also feel like they knew I was beginning to use my brain for a change and cut some ties, so they wanted to be in more control of my life than me.

I think it is actually normal for a young girl to go out after a huge divorce. I think it was a bigger issue because I had not gone out in such a long time. I am 25 and I do still have a lot to learn, and I am going to make mistakes everyday, and I am sure every mistake I make will probably be on CNN or Good Morning America. I am only human people and I love you for still loving me. I am sitting here at home and it is 6:25 and both of my sons are asleep. I am truly blessed to have them in my life. Everyday is so surreal. Life in general is so surreal and crazy.

I just hope this letter made some of you think a little bit more of me and where I am coming from. I just want the same things in life that you want…and that is to be happy. It is just so weird because everyone has their own perception of me and how they think I really am. It is so weird how stories are told. There is your side, my side, and the truth. Somebody has to figure it out. I guess we will never really understand or figure out life completely. That’s God’s job. I can’t wait to meet him…or her. Love, Britney“

Prevod:

Dragi fanovi,

Želim da vam objasnim neke stvari koje su mi se dogodile.

Kako je smešno kako mnoge priče izlaze o ljudima. To je kao da želimo da naša priča, ali na kraju dana nekoliko ljudi žele čuti što se tačno dogodilo, kad je loše uvek zanimljivije nego istina. Ne znam zašto, ali to je meni čudno. Ja sam ljuta na novinare što pišu
užasne stvari o meni, ali sad ja pokušavam biti smirena sto se tice toga. Ja sam videla Tyra Banks jednom kad je bila uplasena i plakala u svojem show-u zato što su rekli da izgleda debelo. Mi želimo u nekom pogledu da znamo sta drugi misle o nama.

Nedavno sam poslana na humano mesto koje se zove rehabilitacija. Stvarno sam pala na dno dna. Do tog dana nisam znala da je to zbog alkohola ili depresije. Bila sam kao loše dete koje želi pažnje. Mrzela sam menadzera puno vremena je pokusao upravljati mojim zivotom i nakon razvoda. Mislim da sam bila u malom šoku. Znam koliko sam ulozila u svoju vezu kad je bila i nisam znala šta učiniti sa samom sobom, i to me činilo tužnom. Priznajem,bila sam potpuno izgubljena.

Ovo pismo nije mesto krivnje na nikoga, nego da sviet vidi svojim očima sad. I još kako su osetljivi kad odem na večeru i na zabavu sa svojim prijateljima i na kraju platim za sve i dobim veliku lekciju. Mislim da su problem mnogi ljudi u mom životu. Nikad ne znate drugu osobu licno ili što druga osoba želi. Osećam i želim otvoriti i pogledati odgovore. Moram izbrisati neke ljude iz svog života. To je jako tužno, ako je netko porodicni čovek... To sam ja. Kad sam bila mala sećam se svake večeri kad sam gledala filmove sa svojom porodicom i osećala mir. Plesanje i pevanje svo vreme bi me cinilo malom devojčicom. Sa svojom decom želim da imaju taj osjećaj svo vreme. Imam na licu puno stvari sada kad imam decu.

Znam da svi misle da se igram, ali ja nisam takva i mrzim što se događa sada. Možda je to razlog za ovo pismo... Da me ljudi gledaju drugačije. To je kao da si prava žena i kažeš što osećaš i kako si, kakve stvari te podupiru, kako ljudi samo kažu da si "bitch."

Osećam kako neki ljudi u mom životu mi naprave više od jednog problema. I još osećam da oni znaju da koristim svoj um za promenu mog raspoloženja, pa žele biti u
mojoj kontroli života. Mislim da je to normalno za mladu curu koja je imala razvod. Imam 25 godina, imam puno toga još za naučiti, i činim greške svaki dan i znam da svaka moja greška će sigurno biti na CNN ili na Good Morning America. Ja sam human čovek i volim vas što me vi još volite.

Sedim ovde kuci i sad je 18:25 i oba dvoje mojih sinova spava. Ja sam stvarno blagoslovljena što ih imam.

Nadam se da je ovo pismo napisano da znate nešto više o meni i odakle sam. Samo želim u životu šta i vi... A to je da budem srecna. To je čudno zato sto svako ima svoju precerpciju o meni i kao oni misle nesto o meni. Kako je čudno šta sve članci govore. To je tvoja strana, moja strana i istina. Neki su shvatili. Mislim da mi nikad nećemo u potpunosti razumeti figuraciju naših života u potpunosti. To je Božji posao. Ne mogu čekati da ga upoznam.

Ja sam prevela kako sam znala... Mozda nesto nije ispravno... Ali sve u svemu je tuzno Sad